Hello everyone i'm 19 years old girl and my Name is Imane .My life was colourful , everything was perfect when i still a baby . However , at 10 years old , we used to visit my aunt like everyday , by the way her house was so much close to our house , so as that my cousin who's older than me always played with me with my poppets and my favourite toys . As one day , we had a party in my aunt's house and i wore my red dress that my grandfather bought me when i still younger than 10 years , so as i mentionned that was a party , i was so much hungry and i told my aunt that i'm hungry then she sent me down stairs to pick up some breads and tea and so on . Anyways , i went down and there was my cousin , he begged me to play with him with my toys and i was happy and i accepted with a happy heart inside , we got inside his room , we started playing for a half hour then he asked to pull up my dress i asked him why then he said it's just for playing a little super game , for me it looked strange to take off my dress and i'm nacked then he pulled up my dress slowly and i was shocked i told him please stop i hate this game but he didn't listen to me , then after a few seconds he became very agressive with me , he got out his dick and got in my ass i was crying a lot but he threaten me that if i screamed he would kill me i was so much scared and i gave up i kept silence , after he finished , he went up stairs like nothing happened and i went my house crying and screaming , i didn't know what to do , to tell my mom or to do anything that could make me feel better. However when i keep remembering what he said about to kill me so i decided to keep silence and never tell anyone what happened even it hurted me a lot , it effected on me phisically and emmotionnally , i wished he killed me than to rape me , and he kept doing the same thing for three years ago like every week , till 12 years we moved on to another center . For many years ago i've gotten scaredness and nightmares , i've got scared of all males , and i always imagine like any man in front of me will do the same thing , and till this second of my life , at 19 years old , i met a boy in net i loved him so much and he does too , and we're planning for wedding but my problem is that whenever i see that male's sex it gets me feel so much scared and remembering what happened till i hate my self, i really need help , i don't know how can i deal with this situation , i've tried everything to overcome my experience but i can't , i feel weakness inside my heart . please i need your advices to me , tell me if i'm wrong about what happened? i don't know ............
Submitted April 11, 2018 at 02:15PM by imane-angel https://ift.tt/2qpuyOQ
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