Disturbing dreams of self-defense weapon use, and not being able to "perform" when necessary

So, three times now (that I can recall), I've had different dreams where the life of my family or myself has been in danger. In each of these dreams, I was carrying. In each scenario, an attacker would present a weapon and threaten myself or others. I would wait for the right time, and draw my firearm. The scene plays the same for each dream up to this point. I could be concealed or open, but each time ended up with me drawing down on the attacker.That's when they all take a bad turn. In the first dream, I could not physically pull the trigger. I was being rush by a man with a knife, and I had my gun on him and ready, but my entire arm was weak and unable to pull the trigger. I could not, for all my efforts, compel my trigger finger to pull the friggin' trigger. The man made it to me, but somehow missed with the knife. We both fall to the ground, and my gun skitters away. Now it's a rush to see who can get to it. I eventually do, and take aim again. This time, I get off two shots, but neither one does anything. I might as well have thrown two pebbles. Completely ineffective.The second dream was similar to the first in that, I could not pull the trigger, and when I managed to, the result was ineffectual.The third dream was last night. A group of friends and neighbors are having a block party, and some baggy-clothed hood-rat walks up to the crowd holding one hand in his jacket pocket. I immediately go on alert, I turn my weak side toward his direction, and my hand raises to rest on my openly carried Glock, away from his line of sight. Sure enough, he pulls a small pistol out of the jacket and proceeds to demand money from everyone. I keep my distance and arrange myself to him so that nobody is behind him. I draw and pull the trigger. Click Click Click... "Shit". I rush the guy and have to force him to the ground by hand. After he was subdued, and nobody had gotten hurt, I check my gun. Apparently, I had loaded up my Glock with a magazine that was busted, and filled with brass casings, not complete rounds.What the hell?Why is my own mind unwilling to accept the idea of shooting another human to stop them from harming anyone? I've seen the sight enough from various sources to be able to piece it all together, but it's like my mind does not want to portray that scene. It's starting to make me fear that I'm subconsciously unwilling to do it in real life.Am I alone in this? Do others have these kinds of dreams? Am I making this into more than it is? I know dreams are open to interpretation, and not always indicative of reality, but it's unsettling to say the least. via /r/CCW http://ift.tt/22oxBkz