Tuesday, October 3, 2023

[Got Assaulted] something is bothering me a lot

I got assaulted a few days ago by a petite woman maybe around my height but doesnt come anywhere close to my fitness level. I'm only 5' 6" and 120 lbs but former combat engineer in the Marine Corps and generally was a "knock around guy".

My mistake was not clocking her as a threat at all until i saw a weapon. she popped me in the mouth full force with both feet planted and (i didnt know at the time) chipped an incisor. I rightfully didnt consider her a threat since she didnt move me when she patty caked my face full force.

base lesson here: as soon as someone covers an exit the fight is on and that person is an enemy combatant.

but the niggling question is this, what the hell are you to do when the human equivilant of a yorkshire terrier (petite woman or child) comes at you all aggressive.

this encounter felt like being in a car, getting car keyed and pondering whether I wanted to mow her down with the gas pedal. I wanted to choke slam her (and the impression i got from dispatchers and officers gave me an impression that i could get away with that), but I just stuck around at a safe distance and recorded her coming back to the store to start more shit on film to give evidence and identifying images to police.

anyways, when exit blocked fight is on, and people that you think are harmless can actually do harm FUCK that societal perception of a buff man brutalizing a woman in public being negative. This is driving me mad and i am having a hard time believing in the progressive social equality bullshit where people say a man shouldnt hurt a woman in any circumstance when unarmed and stereotypical size difference exists.

and if anyone is going to have issue with this post, no, i didnt do anything to her, i refused to buy her beer in my own autistic shy socially awkward way and put my foot all the way down too late. And after I was struck I just locked eyes with her contemplating whether I was going to choke slam her, put my fist through her neck, put her in a chokehold until she passed out, or sit on her sternum until police got there, occassionally popping her in the face like whackamoler to keep the fight out of her or straight killing her by gouging her eyes out. If I knew my teeth got chipped when calculating what to do before she left, I might have gone ahead and dragged her back inside, forced her to the ground to break her striking arm with an arm bar. But was mainly waiting for a second strike or a weapon, either one would have allowed me to send her to the ER.

but she was a petite black woman and im a much more subtantial asian man. I wasnt going to end up like Daniel Penny because a michael jackson lookalike was instigating me and I go full fucking dorm room mcmap on her ass and take her life. this liberal town in the pnw would probably riot this week over that.

i know i prob sound like a little bitch rn, but its really bothering me and i wish i can get some moral support or some discussion about this. how do you maintain good PR and properly defend yourself, so you dont need to see the teeth store about your chompers because the attacker is a crazy lapdog of a human being.

edit: I've been on a journey with buddhist lit and meditation for a few years now and this goddamn hoodrat ruined that a little for me. as Dr. Dre said, keep fucking around with me and I might turn back to the old futurerotorhead.



Submitted October 03, 2023 at 11:37AM by FutureRotorhead https://ift.tt/EQh517f

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