In my dreams I can never pull a trigger. What is my mental block with it?

I know this is a weird post and I’ll probably get all joke answers but believe it or not this is actually something that I woke up this morning kind of bothered by.It’s not all the time that I have dreams that involve shooting people or monsters, but occasionally I do. It’s always the same thing, some bad guy or thing is coming to get me or someone I love, but I thankfully have my G19.However in every single dream without fail, I cannot pull the trigger when I need to. It’s like my finger becomes incredibly weak and lethargic right at the moment I need it, and the trigger feels like a million pounds and I try so hard with my pathetically weak finger to pull it that whatever it is I’m trying to shoot (last night it was a very disturbing vampire-like creature that was coming in my third story apartment window to kill me) eventually gets me or I give up on defending myself and run away.This is obviously frustrating in the dream, but I woke up this morning even more frustrated because what I realized from this happening without fail every time, is that I must have some kind of mental block on pulling the trigger. I mean patterns appear in dreams for a reason. But what is this telling me? I flaired this post as “training,” because I think that’s probably most relevant to what I’m asking. But I really just want some insight from anyone who understands the psychology of defensive gun use better than I do. Or anyone at all really.For background, I train minimum once a month with my carry gun. Accuracy is my greatest strength, I have a good draw and have overcome the flinching issue I had when I first began shooting. I’m working on improving my follow up shot speed because it’s not ideal right now. I have no conscious fear of defending myself or my loved ones, and I’ve been around guns since I was too young to speak so there’s no fear there whatsoever.What do via /r/CCW http://bit.ly/2HndqFm