TW ///// SA survivor. Trying to protect myself.

TW for mention of child sex abuse and rape

Hi I’m a 21f and I’m trying to learn how to be strong and defend myself. I survived sexual abuse from ages 12-14 and was raped at 17. I live in fear all the time. I’ve been getting better at verbally defending myself and standing up to the everyday perverts and creeps but I need to be prepared for if/when I am physically assaulted again. But every time I try to train I collapse and cry and I can’t move forward because trying to get stronger just reminds me that I’m too weak to protect myself and I won’t be prepared if another assault happens soon like tonight or tomorrow. How do I get past this block?

I don’t take private messages because every time I try to talk about my problem I get rapists and pedophiles in my PMs telling me they jacked off to my trauma. So if you actually want to help and not jack off to my trauma please just comment. Thank you

Submitted October 04, 2021 at 12:00PM by throwRA27121227 https://ift.tt/2WKo01G