Moments where I'm relieved to be carrying are those moments I never want to experience again.

I was just thinking about this because of what happened tonight. I live in the ghetto and it's always been a fear of mine that someone would break in while I'm home or that I would come home to a stranger in my apartment. Call me paranoid if you wish, I've had it happen to me before. My apartment is on the first floor and I usually can park directly in front of it (which I really like because my headlights will illuminate the living room and kitchen) unless one of the neighbors takes my spot. Today I had to park a few spots down, so no spotlighting for me. The kitchen light in the background was on and what do I see? A silhouette. Wonderful. So I froze. Now I've run through this situation in my head before and I decided that should this ever come to be I would get right back in my car and drive the hell away. I certainly am not about to go confront an intruder when I can let the cops do that for me. So I got back in my car and drove to the other side of the complex and tried to calm myself down. It also occurred to me that it could have been the cat but he doesn't usually sit like that and he certainly doesn't look like a person. However, I didn't want to call the cops over my cat in the window so I thought I'd give my apt a drive by and see if I couldn't get a better look. Sure enough, it was just my asshole cat.I feel kind of silly about the whole thing and it's a little embarrassing to share it, but during the brief moments when I was convinced there was someone in my apartment I was really glad to be carrying. I had no intention of going to confront a possible intruder but I recognized that if they saw me see them then it would not go well for us. And I was reassured by having it. So like I said, moments where I'm relieved to be carrying are the moments I never want to experience again. Other times I've been relieved to have it, like when I was camping on the outer banks, are honestly terrifying. I never want to experience another home invasion, or an extreme road rage incident, or things like that. I just don't ever want to be in another situation where my mind is relieved by having it with me, because I don't like being in dangerous situations. I would love to go my whole life without actually needing my gun. via /r/CCW http://ift.tt/2k1AZ5O